Cerise was commenting the other day how long I've not blogged. Indeed, been feeling so overwhelmed with school work and prac that I've neglected blogging.

Sometimes when I look at my clients, I can't help but think 'I don't know if I can really help you. I can't even help myself and I'm facing the same problem as you are.'
Am so overwhelmed by the amount of things that I have to do: Assignments every 3 week, quizzes, case notes (loads and loads of them), seeing clients almost every day (so much so that I have no time to write my case notes).

It's so much that sometimes I just want to hide somewhere and cry.
I want to find someone to talk to, but I find it so hard sometimes.
I don't know what to say.. How do I begin with how I'm feeling? I don't know what I'm feeling.
hmm...

no wonder I like to run. It's not exercise time, really. It's more like time for me to wind down - and I need that 45 mins on most days. It keeps me sane.

With that, I went for a walk just now. My head was bursting with negativity and I decided that I need an outlet. If I could, I would have went running. Walking is the next best alternative I could find, I guess. It beats jumping out of my window. HAHA

And guess what, I was just going to burst into tears when my mom called out to me. She saw me walking and came after me. My first reaction was 'great, when I want to be left alone'.

Boy, was I wrong. My mama is the best thing that happened to me today. She walked with me, talked to me, asked me what I was doing downstairs, and made me laugh - all of which was something I needed. Her presence took my mind off things and made me feel that someone cared for me, at a time when I needed someone.

Thanks, mama. I love you.

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