'Tis the season to be jolly~~

This would be a fruitful christmas.. with meetups with friends and presents exchanging all over the place..
It would fit how the Chinese always say 施比受更有福.. It's happy to see your friends smile happily when they receive the presents, because I am happy when I receive gifts!
It doesn't matter whether it's an expensive gift.. It's the thought that counts.. =)

But I feel bad when someone gives me an expensive present and I haven't gotten anything in return.. That being said, you don't have to wait till Christmas to buy someone a gift!

So, while it's still Christmas Eve, go out there and get something small for someone significant - be it your family, your significant other, your friends or even your colleagues.. They won't care how much it cost, it's the thought that counts.. =)

Merry Christmas!!!!!!

Labels: holidays

In the last 1 week that my brother has been staying at home, I felt that I've grown closer to him than in the past few years.

We have more similar interests than we know.

For one, we both love anime. So that day, while I was watching Naruto, my brother asked me which episode am I watching. Then he passed me the latest episode which he downloaded.
We ended up discussing Naruto, and apparently he's been following up on Naruto's manga. And he told me that a lot of people died already! Like Jiraiya... AND KAKASHI!!!!! *bursts out crying*

Anyway, I'm going out of point.. The point is, we have another similar interest - exercise! So when I reached home yesterday and changed into my jogging attire - just in case I backed out on myself last minute - my brother asked me about my jogging route. We spent a few minutes discussing, and he said he's going to change too. MY BROTHER IS GOING JOGGING WITH ME!!!! woohoo!!! That's a first, but I don't think I can catch up to his speed. He's a marathon finisher for many years already la; I'm no match for him in terms of speed or stamina.

He was nice though - jogged at my speed until the last stretch, where he told me he'll meet me at the end. We even saw a lady jogging in slippers, and he turned to me and uttered his disbelief. haha.. It was a good experience.

It's like, I never expected myself to be able to do something alongside my brother. All along, it's like he's this unattainable lead where I'm trying to match up. A little like living in his shadow. But now, I see myself not as his little sister anymore. Not an equal yet, but almost there. =)

And it's definitely a good feeling. I can connect to my brother better now, I think. hee..

=)

Labels: family

I must say I've been doing a lot of thinking recently. I have a friend who tends to spur my thoughts and make me think.

What can make a person so angry and so full of hatred with the world, that he wants to take revenge on this world with his entire life-worth of happiness? What has happened in his life to make him lose the belief? What had he went through to accumulate so much hatred?

In my perspective, nothing is worth it. Nothing in this world is worth you sacrificing your happiness for. Your life is yours, and no one else would care how hurt you are; because you're not their concern. So how worhtwhile is that?

How do you define a relationship? Is it the physical aspect of it or the emotional aspect of it?
A friend said: when 2 hearts fits into one another, it's a bond that can't be broken thru distance nor time. With that, a conclusion that the emotional aspect is more important because the physical aspect of it can be obtained from any other woman; the emotional aspect of it is what really really lasts.

I have to agree. So many mistakes I have made along the way, so many things I realised I shouln't hav given in. And yet, mistakes and been made and people don't learn all the time. Like I said, you don't fully recover from stupidity.

I don't like to have people reading my thoughts as well - makes me feel vulnerable too. But what I didn't tell you is that I like to read what you're thinking. Which makes you potentially dangerous as well..

We're just 2 similar beings..

Labels: randoms

I didn't know I could say so much words of wisdom. I guess things are different when you have to think on the spot. When you're talking to someone and desperately trying to get him to see things from your point of view, you have to think super fast. I realised that's when many words of wisdom come out from. hahaha.. I can be a wise lady too ;)

Anyway, xuan's usual belief of things happening for a reason still holds true. Until the thing happened, you never know why it happened. Even when I'm helping someone look at things from a different point of view, I begin to see things from another view too. It helps me, at the same time that I helped him.

Someone said, even when things are impossible, it's possible.
Because 'impossible' says 'I m possible'

And someone said that life is full of IFs..
That's why it's spelled as L-IF-E..

I've never seen it in this light before. I feel so enlightened.. haha..
It feels nice to have someone teach me things for a change.

Anyway, I was thinking a lot when I went jogging today..
It struck me that, there are many things in which women overestimate themselves; and one of the mistakes women often make in a relationship is in thinking that she can change the man.
The man will never change; maybe temporarily but nor permanently. You may go into a relationship thinking that 'It's ok that he has this flaw now. He may change for me in the future.'

Abandon this thought, women. It's not going to happen. The man you see now will most likely be the man you see many years down the road. The change may come in the form of compromise; they may compromise a certain extent of their habits for you, but the habit will never go away.

Likewise, the positive side of him is likely to stay too.

I have to agree with some of the negativities in life. Like, how greedy all of us really are; how greedy I really am. I am a selfish and greedy girl. I want all the best things in life. I want someone to be tied down by me, but I don't want to be tied down by anyone. I want the freedom to choose amongst all the options I have, and yet I want everyone else to only have eyes for me.

Look at how greedy human really is.

If you keep focusing on the things that you do not have in life, most likely you will miss what you already have in your possession. Yet at the same time, people keep striving for the best they can have in life, which is why they want more. They are not contented with what they already have; and that is why at the end of the day, they may end up losing more than what they entered the picture with.

I don't know if my flame is still burning.. I don't know whether I really believe in what I believe. I do know that some of the things I used to believe in are no longer there. As I grow up, the black and whites are no longer clearly defined; grey areas are everywhere.

Who is to judge what is right and what is wrong? Who is to judge me? Who is to judge you?
So what if what I did was wrong? My rationale was right; and that's what more important to me.

Life sucks sometimes.. hahahha..
oh well~

Labels: thoughts