xuan has been too lazy to update her blog with pictures from taiwan.
even my brother already uploaded the pictures, copied into CD and passed to me already.
and i haven't been plugged the cam into the USB cable to link to the pc..
ok so you get the idea ya~

anyway, i'm tired..
this month will pass by so fast for me too..
soon, i'll be leaving for thailand.. when i'm still recovering from taiwan..

but strangely, xuan's looking forward to end of the year more than she is looking forward to the thailand trip.. which is not supposed to be..
xuan's patiently waiting for 30th dec to approach..

but before that! its the BSU x'mas celeration!
i said i'll make potato salad.. i want to try apple pie too! and hopefully it succeeds..

xuan's still thinking of 30th dec..
and wanting to go suntanning at sentosa..
don't forget what you said before..
and please always mean what you say..

something you said casually might mean alot to someone else.. so don't take your words too casually.. speak with caution, people..

Labels: randoms

我回来了!!!!!
anybody missed me? ok i know loo, violet and loo seng did.. hee~
taiwan was fun! i want to go back for shopping during the summer period! didn't buy that much this time cause it's all winter clothings, abit not suitable for S'pore weather. but i will definitely go back again..
the most benefitting of this trip was the bonding with my family, i think. i am sooooooooo much closer to my sis-in-law now. haha we bought so many similar clothings!! same bag, same clothes.. haha
i think both my sisters-in-law are very xing fu.. because they married my brothers.. haa~ -oops- my brothers are like how sweet la.. haha

hmm haven't had the time to post up pictures.. will do it soon though..

came back to sad news of the dragon boaters.. can feel the sorrow of the team members.. can't imagine how the team members are going to cope with the pain of losing their members.. and i believe that all dragon boaters share the pain...

will update with pictures soon~

Labels: vacation

i'm flying off to taiwan tomorrow! yay!
and i should really be sleeping or packing my bag.. but i'm still online..
and my mom's blasting the music off to record some songs to entertain her when she's travelling, but i think she'll just fall asleep once she hits the seat.. -oops-

anyway, don't miss me too much, people!! ;)
i'll definitely enjoy myself!!
hee~

wait for my photos!!!
bye!

Labels: vacation

time passes by so fast! it's gonna be end of the year already.. i wonder what i was doing last year this time.. i think i'm pia-ing for my exams.. haha

anyway, this year this time i'm preparing to go overseas!! and i have so much things going on till the end of the year.. so looking forward to everything..
next monday i'll be flying to taiwan for my family trip. it'll be so fun!
then next month this time i'll be flying to thailand with the girls! so exciting! we'll be on our own~! hopefully everything goes ok~~

and then when i'm back.. it'll be 26th dec already.. after which, i'll be looking forward to 30th dec.. ^^
so, basically, the last 2 month of 2007 will pass by very fast for me.. with so much activities going on! so happy.. although i'll probably stay in singapore for the 1st half year next year, all these activities will probably keep me going le la.. hahaha!! lalala~

xuan is happy!!!!

Labels: vacation

i'm not in the angry mood, yet i don't feel happy
i don't hate.. but yes, i'm angry
with what, i'm not that sure..
angry that it happened not once, but twice?
angry that i tot someone cared about me, but don't?
angry that i was the one who let it happen again?

but i learned..
and if i let it happen again, please, my friends. slap me out of it.
i. will. not. let. it. happen. again.
i swear.

i will not be naive again
i will not trust
will not believe in words, not even actions
i will not believe that people care naturally
i will not believe that people are without ulterior motives

i know that eventually i will forget all these.
so this is to let you guys know.
when you see me doing the same thing, going back into things that you know is wrong,
stop me
no matter what i say, stop me
and show me what i wrote today

i will not believe again.
i can't feel a single thing.....

ok i just realised today that i've grossly neglected my blog.. haven't updated in ages..
and i'm not feeling very ok.. think i'm down with flu.. hopefully it goes away when i wake up tomorrow.. violet tells me to take off tmr.. hmm c how la..
i'm just glad that i have colleagues who care.. it feels very loved..

been doing alot of reading recently. am pleasantly surprised with really good books found in the hta library..
its those kind of books where you read and reflect back on it. i'd like to think i grew up a little..
first thing i learned was.. that life is so much more than we see it now.

how many of us actually recognise the fact that we will all die one day. i mean, seriously come to face it with no fear. i think about death, but i don't think it will happen to me in the recent future. and that means i'm not coming to terms with it. honestly, there's nothing difficult about it. look in the mirror, and tell myself 'i will die one day'. now that's not that difficult right? but i don't do it. and i'm sure neither do you.
but do you realise that, unless you come to terms with it, you wouldn't have really lived?

when you learn how to die, you learn how to live
and it's so true. if you recognise the fact that you will die one day, you will truly start living.. because of the realisation, you learn to live each day with all you have. you will try your best to not let that day go to waste. you will not procrastinate. you will do what you think is meaningful. you will not live with regrets..

and i also learned that, i have to learn how to detach from my feelings..
it's not that i do not feel, but i learn to how to let go of those feelings.. like, if i feel regretful, i recognise that i'm feeling regretful, and i let go of those feelings.. we shouldn't cling onto the feelings.. when we do, we tend to not notice the things that would mean so much more..

wow i have so much things to say.. erm.. if you don't have time, don't read ok? ;)

something else is.. despite all we're feeling, we should let it go after it passed..
you can be mad at someone, sad with someone.. but after you calmed down, talk it over. solve the problem, and not let the issue pass. give both parties closure. the important thing is not the anger you felt, but rather how the other party felt. if the feeling had passed, then don't harp on it anymore.. listen, to what the other party has to say. sometimes, you have to see both sides of the coin to realise that you might not be so right afterall..
the person who said sorry might not be the one who is wrong.. saying sorry is a way of saying 'i don't want to quarrel anymore. let's make up.' it takes alot of courage to say sorry, so don't put down the person who apologizes. instead, treasure him/her for the courage and love for you..

someone asked me today if i was upset with something that happened over the weekend. i said i'm ok. frankly, i felt a little disappointed when i found out about it, but i got over it. i recognised that i'm feeling this way because it matters to me. but i also understand that there were underlying reasons.
so.. i want to tell my friend, that you don't have to feel bad about it ok? it's not the invitation that mattered, it's the fact the you bothered to explain to me. so, thank you. you know i'll always love you ya *winks*

my big conclusion of the day is, communication matters alot.
no matter how busy you are, take a second to tell the person you care about how much you love him/her. you never know how much difference that second makes.

ok i really wrote alot.
i think i'm pms-ing...

Labels: emo, thoughts

i don't like to hear news of relationships ending..
especially one in which both parties are still very much in love..
cannot comprehend why it has to end this way..
and even across the computer screen, i can feel the pain..
of not being able to be with the other party..
and the pain of knowing that he/she feels the same way..

knowing that you love him/her so much, but the situation is already irreversible..
and that the pain is so unbearable..
but there is nothing you can do..

how many people in this world are still looking for their other half..
they found each other, yet it ended this way..
will they ever be able to love another person the same way again?
i don't think so....
will they be able to go back to who they were before meeting each other?
i don't think so too..

everyone of each are changed by the people we meet every minute, change by the things we encounter everyday..
what more someone whom you loved so much and still wants to be with for the rest of your life??
the pain is just unbearable..
and yet they have to put on a strong front and go on with life..

how will they be able to recover from this??
i dont even know how to comfort her..
i know nothing i say will help.. and she really just need time for the wound to heal..

Labels: emo