Friday, November 24, 2006
ok ok i'm back~!!!
been mugging and feeling saaaaaaaaaaaaad
i lost my phoneyes yes i lost my phone. (mind you ppl, this is the 1st time anything happened to my phone ok)
and don't ask me what happened. i don't know
and, i've been mugging.
going back to school and studying..
trying to get some things into my brains just in time for exams.
and errr my mom went travelling
and now i miss her..
mommy come back soon~so i've been doing some washing of clothes and etc
not as bad as the time both my parents went overseas though
i had to do everything MYSELF
this time there's my dad
hmm actually there's really nothing much to update la
my life's been boring
NTU's exams is going to end while mine is only going to start!!!!
oh man..
ok talk another day~
btw, ppl..
tmr, 2230, chn5..
watch 'A Beautiful Mind' k? its a fantastic show..
[x]uan @ 23:28
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Thursday, November 16, 2006
exams coming liao..
and basically my life is SUPPOSED to be revolved around books and studying..
yea see the word supposed?
i still have a essay to write! sighs...don't really know how to approach it..
smoking and drinking is not good, people..
chronic drinking causes brain damage, especially to brain parts related to memory and learning..
ie hippocampus and thalamus smoking PLUS drinking is super bad!!
yea thats all i've been reading nowadays.. and i really don't want to turn my blog into a intellectual one.. you guys will definitely be bored by me de.. and i gained weight!! big news sia..
trying to lose some kg here.. so i've been exercising ernestly!!
hopefully all these exercising will help..
and arts canteen will be closed from saturday onwards!! so sad..
i will miss the
bar chor mee, yong tau foo, claypot rice, the bau+waffle+
bee hoon stall.
basically, almost everything i've eaten i will miss..
hopefully the replacements will be good..
got to mug mug mug like siao..
and my future.. is bleak.... =([x]uan @ 23:14
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Saturday, November 11, 2006
some people seem pretty happy these few days, some seem pretty bad..
anyway! exams are coming!!!
and at this time of the year, i will fall sick again!!!
so tentatively, i fall sick twice
at least twice per year..
hmm nothing much to blog about nowadays..
except that i'm rather used to aloneliness (like xiang used to love it and blog about it)
ya.. hopefully i dont turn into a loner..
haa..
its at this time of the year when i start thinking about my exams and WORSE!
MY FUTUREscary lars..
gotta start working soon.
and worries start pouring in like nobody's business..
can i graduate?
can i find a good job?
can i find a job that i really like?
can i get used to working life?
what will life be after graduation?
am i really to start work?
what kind of job should i look for?
what kind of job is suitable for me?
uncertainties..
and i get very unsettled about the future..
what about my parents?
sighs... feeling so uneasy..
HEY!!!!this is not supposed to be a melancholic post!!
ok i'm going into PMS-ing mood..
by the way, for all smokers out there.. another reason for you to quit smoking..
smoking causes impotence k.. i need to study and graduate first before i start thinking about all the problems lar..
[x]uan @ 21:56
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Wednesday, November 08, 2006
there are some quotes that are very nice too!
those kind 听了会心痛，也会心动的
haven't added them in.. =)
‘我不在乎。只要你对我说“留在我身边”，这样就好’
‘就算全世界都离开我，至少你要留在我身边’
‘如果没有你，我还能活下去吗？’
‘谢谢你出现在我面前，成为我命运的一部分’
‘我遗失了我的心。所以不能放下，也无法放下。’
‘罗密欧，你的爱为什么会那么轻浮？为什么会那么轻易就改变了？’
我在你眼里
看见了留下的泪水
于是我明白了
人生有时辛苦 有时流泪
并不是一件坏事
actually there are some more very nice ones..
but i can't remember liao la..
wait for the TV to show them then i write them down ba.. =)
[x]uan @ 21:15
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Sunday, November 05, 2006
if you're reading this, i really wana say sorry
i know that 'i don't mean it' is a lousy excuse, but i didn't mean for it to hurt you
i know that..
i, of all people, should know and understand all the pain you went through.
should understand everything you went through
should understand how painful it is..
but i was too harsh..
i just.. didn't know how to let you understand that you have to let go..
stop hurting yourself, my dear.. not worth it..
in the end, the only person going to be hurt is you.. and you know that..
i know it's difficult, but i believe you can do it..
you will do just fine. you will be ok.
you will heal.. the scar may stay but you will heal..
i still promise to always be there for you
if you let me..
******
isn't it stupid?
i still think, still hope..
still waiting..
but sometimes i think i might need someone to scold me, to be harsh with me
to tell me to stop too..
to tell me i'm stupid
to tell me its not worth it
to tell me to move on
to tell me i will be ok......
it needs to take me so many realisations to understand that..
isn't there a shortcut somewhere?
i thought i can..
turned out i couldn't.....
couldn't........
hurts... [x]uan @ 23:46
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remember in Goong, shin was in trouble (as usual) and he's very upset and said that nobody taught him how to handle those kind of situations before.
and i was very sad when he said that..
think i'm kinda in that kind of situation now?
i don't know how to handle situations like this and nobody taught me how to before..
i don't know what i should do.
but maybe there is no need to come up with a solution at all..
maybe the solution is already there for me..
i just need to see it..
i need some time to sort out things, i think.. [x]uan @ 22:23
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Wednesday, November 01, 2006
you know how they always say studying too much psyc makes you kinda crazy?
i finally understand how it feels like now
was watching
liao zhai and its about Ah Bao.
so anybody who's watching will know that she's been cast a spell to forget things the next day (which is really like
50 First Dates and the so sweet guy makes a point to get to know her everyday)
alright so it goes like this when i was watching the show..
she forgets things the next day:
anterograde amnesiashe cries when she hurt him but can't remember:
her emotional memory is intact!!ok see what psychology does to me..
sighs.. i'm losing my mind!!! -.-[x]uan @ 22:23
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don't you think humans are very contradictory sometimes?
and very confusing also..
sometimes you just don't know what the person is thinking. and to make things worse, you refuse to ask. why? 'cause of 'face' ma.. don't want to make the 1st move.
and thats when human relationships become stagnant and can't move on.
when both parties don't want to make themselves clear.
actually, i want to talk and know how the other party feels.
but same thing, tai ai mian zi le.
won't know what to say as well, so might as well just keep quiet.
don't know how the other party think as well, so don't want to make the 1st move.
so how to know what is the other person thinking?
hint lor. try and use all sorts of methods to ming2 shi4 and an4 shi4, hope the person can get your point.
but people, no point trying to hint so much
i really want to know what the other person thinks..
but sometimes, thinking back on it.. so what if i do know what the other party thinks?
it's not going to change anything.. and since it's not going to change anything, then no point..
really..no point..
sometimes you have to know when to let go, thats the most important thing..
[x]uan @ 18:26
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