you know when you're in one of those moods again
the vulnerable feeling
like, how a small issue can get you so upset kind?

no no i'm ok!
just that, sometimes guys just can't understand
not trying to be sexist here.. but its true ma!
cannot understand unless you've been through it..
just like how guys always say we girls cannot understand NS, which is true
we cannot understand how tough and shitty it feels, so neither can you guys understand the feeling of pms-ing right?!
hahahaha me and my logic

its like, you can get upset over a small issue which you normally won't
you get moody all of a sudden and don't feel like doing anything else
you just need some company and people to cheer u up
and sometimes you wana be left alone while hoping for all the above too
yes girls are just so hard to please..
but THATS how pms-ing feels like.. contradicting..

and imagine us poor girls have to go through it every month!
for the rest of my at least 30 years..
and you guys only go through hell for 2 yrs and the occassional 1-2 weeks every year..
US? once a month for at least 40 years you know?!

yea you shld've realised by now..
pms-ing mood....

you know how we always say that school fees are increasing so much its crazy? like, i pay $6110 per year (which is really only ard 30 weeks) and i get bimbotic tutors and ill-treatment!!! like this!















weili took this picture when me, him and gen bitched about attending a tutorial on the corridor!! see!! we were made to sit on the floor and doing our presentation!!

sighs.. inefficient ppl...

its a make up lesson you see.. and we're supposed to go to a bigger room (which is not our designated room) for a tutorial. the (bigger) room is supposed to have been booked, but something went wrong with the system la.. so in the meantime while our tutor is trying to settle the problem, we're supposed to discuss and write our presentation on the mahjong paper..

(and when she gave us the mahjong paper, weili asked her where's the tiles. and she didn't know what he meant! *faints*)

ok btw, ya and we sat on the floor to discuss for a whole one hour. pity the girls who were wearing skirts.. thankfully i decided against wearing skirt on friday due to reasons even i myself dont know.. haa...

yea just bought a printer (again). still remeber how i used to run to my bro for help whenever something's wrong with my PC related stuff at home.. now i try to settle them myself.. *beams proudly*
feels even better when the problem is settled!!

saw this quote from my textbook and i found it so interesting.
how is it that, in the human body, reproduction is the only function to be performed by an organ of which an individual carries only one half so that he has to spend an enormous amount of time and energy to find another half? --- Francois Jacob

i've bought a new phone for myself!!!
its the 1st phone which i paid out of my own pocket..
haa so excited!! only concern is i'm afraid it will give me problems.. 'cause weili's feedback about the phone is not too good..

ok yea i haven said which phone i'm using right?














i'm using N6280~!!! there's a student promo so i went to buy it last night.. err its quite cheap lor, and up till now i haven experienced any problem yet.. YET la..

the person recommends me to upgrade the software once i get my phone though.. irene!!! i can do video calls too!!! -grinx-

excitedly playing with my phone...

was watching ‘我叫金三顺’
and there was this phrase which she saw at the bus stop

勇敢去爱吧，就当作自己从来没有受伤过

and i think its so sad.. especially in her situation..
难道受到伤害了还是要勇敢去爱吗？
就算到最后受伤的是自己，也还是要去爱吗？
遍体鳞伤也无所谓吗？

为什么要这么伤害自己？
为什么不要在越陷越深之前离开？

原本当初不是就已经下定决心要放弃的了吗？ 为什么又三心两意？
是喜欢， 还是习惯？

两个人可以相爱，是一种缘分。 不可以这么容易说放弃的。
‘不要轻易说出分手这种话’
so trueeeee
分手一旦说出第一次，就很容易有第二次、第三次…

不可以再这样下去了。
我们，真的是不适合。
千万不要小看回忆。

不要任何事都等到明天。
不要等到明天才告诉她你爱她。
what if tomorrow never comes????

ok this is so random.. probably 10 days later even i won't know what i was talking about =)

times when you suddenly realise you've been a horrible person instead of the nice one you thought you've been all along.

nothing nice happened recently.
everything bad.
scolded.
hated.

need to be alone..

went to Poni's bday party yesterday at downtown. i only have some photos, but it's not about about how much photos i have la. we had a pretty good time yesterday self-entertaining. chit-chatting, crapping. and i laughed like i haven't did in a long time. like, really laugh until cannot stop kind. and they were like, 'xuan, you3 na4 me4 hao3 xiao4 ma1?'

but its really hao xiao wat! -hahahahahaha-


us during cake cutting.. the only segment of the day where bingxiu was looking forward to eagerly.. 'cause he wants to go home watch soccer!! -.-"
after dinner (@ 7+) only then he ask poni cut cake liao.. funny la! hahaha.. chi dao hao guo mei dao is his quote of the day.. =)


us ba zhan-ing the whole room to ourselves watching Da Chang Jin.. super funny la.. its amazing how we can make such a solemn and sad show so funny.. with andy entertaining (and irritating) us (esp colleen) with his explanations.. and constant shaking of the bed.. hahaha


me n cerise!
taken by dear mr. andy, whom we think really.. sy is a better photographer..
psst.. andy, you won't want us to tell Apple what you said about getting married HOR..


me n sweet jingyun!!
she change so much right!! she permed her hair.. all of us got a shock when she walked in.. (if you can't remember how she looked like previously, refer to pictures from my bday..)
all of us kinda agreed that she looks like kaicheng from the backview.. cuz kc used to have this hairstyle ma..


my slacking clique in jc..

the whole group of ppl who went for parties.. those whom i borrow notes to copy from, those whom we buy food for each other when lesson ends late and queue's gonna be long.. those whom we joke ard with in jc, skip lessons together.. =)
miss them lehs.. very nan de can meet up like this.. and we're planning on a trip in dec! initiated by sy, seconded by me, and supported by jy..
hahaha ya only the 3 of us seems enthu enough to go.. hopefully the rest can join us too.. just a short trip at the end of the year.. relaxation and stuff.. jy's interested to go vietnam too! perhaps we can go sometime before we start work.. hahahaha


oh yea! almost forgot alicia.. sy was saying very nan de can meet sec sch fren here in party.. very qiao.. and say must take photo tgt.. hahaha

Love is not to forget but to forgive, not too see but to understand, not to hear but to listen, not to let go but to hold on..

Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like, because the one you like will leave you for the one they love

Find a guy, who calls you beautiful instead of hot
Who calls you back when you hang up on him
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep
Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats
Who holds your hand in front of his friends
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you
Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her."

was in the adolescent psyc lec today.. and the lecturer was saying stuff like, how the adolescent progress in their thinking and stuff..

and when i went for tuition today, i asked my kid about the Heinz dilemma.. ok it goes sth like this ( not the complete and exact version):

Heinz's wife is critically ill and there's no cure of yet. However, the physicial told Heinz that a druggist in the same town just discovered a new drug that will definitely save his wife. Heinz approached the druggist, and was told that the drug cost $2000, which is 10 times the cost price. (ie the cost to produce the drug is only $200 but he's selling @ $2000). Heinz went to raise money but could only come up with $1000. He made a request to the druggist, to let his wife have the drug 1st, and he will pay the balance later. The druggist refused on grounds that he's the one who discovered the drug, and that he should be paid full for it. In the end, Heinz stole the drug from the druggist for his wife.

Should Heinz have stolen the drug?

ok this is roughly what the situation is about. there's no right or wrong answer la ok? if you don't mind, can let me know. =)

and i was quite surprised with my kid's answer. asked her 'why', and she gave me a surprising response too! so i guess the lecturer's right, some things do change.

but, some things never change.. and seriously, i don't want to think about it anymore..
tired.....

woah its the 4th week of school and i'm feeling the stress liao.
looking at the huge anount of things i need to submit before the term break sets in. i wonder whats with all these lecturers. all pa gak to want us to hand in everything these few weeks.
and so many presentations!!!! omg... think, what.. almost every week also have? ok that was exaggerating..

dear brought me to this HK cafe near west coast there and its really good!! go to the webbie.. i'm gonna go back there on mon!!! yeah!!! -excitedly-

hey xiangyunloo, lets go there one of these days k? its really good la!! =)

at least i still have my dear and friends with me..
and to you, at least you still have me with you.. =) will always stand by you k..

my dear just listened to me talk crap for the last 25 minutes although he's super tired and must be thinking in his heart, hoping that i will talk faster so that he can go sleep earlier
(ok i added in the last part myself)

anyway, the idea is, he's so tired and so lack of sleep, but still listened to me! though he didn't have much response, but he nicely listened to me!!

think he's feeling bad 'cause he's been so busy and can't talk to me nor pei me much nowadays.. hmm.. will be expecting more to come since he's planning to run for block head.. but, er.. will try and understand..

and also for fetching me today though he's been running around the whole day and getting all busy and sleepy.. but still, he made the extra trip to come down to town and fetch me from work and go eat tgt.. though its not alot, but.. really treasure this short time tgt.. and, missed the days when he fetched me home from work.. =
thanks... =)

its very very nice to go back to work today.. chatted with my manager the whole day and shared alot of things.. listened to alot of her stories and experiences.. no no she's not old.. she's only 26, which is like, a few years older than me.. but share lor.. like i tell her my stories and she tell me hers..

and learned alot of things.. thought about alot some things.. learned some things..

wanted to tell him alot of things, but he's so tired nowadays, doesn't seem interested to listen.
and so many things i wana share but i duno who to tell..

dammit pms-ing mood again

no one's online.. somebody come entertain me..