remember back in SA when we had the blood donation drive? and all the long queues outside study room? , all wanting to donate blood??
well i wanted to donate in J1 too, but i need parental consent you see.. and my dad disapproves 'cause he thinks i'm abit anaemia.. and so did kim.. disapproves too..
so what happens is i've never really clarified whether i'm really anaemia.. so there was a blood donation drive at Telok Blangah CC yday and yishu asked me if i wanted to donate blood.. and he said why not consult the doctor.. and i did.. so i did a blood test and the result is.........

i really have anaemia

so after all the trouble, i didn't get to donate blood afterall.. got alot of advices.. take more red meat (which i don't and probably never will), take iron supplements (and drink more water and eat more green vege)
so well..
conclusion is.. i didn't donate blood yday..

and i ran into winnie at suntec! erm winnie from kim's class..
kim!! i saw winnie!!!!!
and surprisingly she smiled at me too!! hahaha waved and said hi..
she looks at me and yishu funnily though.. hahahaha

walked along esplanade with yishu yday.. saw a couple celebrating a 21st bday!! as in, they bought a cake and sat along at the benches there and celebrated la.. so i told yishu..
'hey! 21st bday!! let's go up and wish them happy birthday'
so i went up and said 'happy birthday' to the bday BOY. surprisingly.. i tot it's the girl's bday, then it turned out to be the guy's..
oh well anyway, i wished the guy happy birthday!! they must've thought i was crazy..
but after walking off, i realised the girlfriend looks abit familiar.. looks like she's from SA!! cant rem though.. hahahah my usual cant-rem-faces thing la.. but i was wearing the 'Once the Saint. Always a Saint..' teeshirt.. maybe she will recognise me.. muahahahaha

ok this is.. a crap and random entry..
yday was a moody day though...

CF's been keeping me crazily busy.. so many things to do and only 1 me..
i need people to brainstorm with me.. to think with me whatto do for Vmall.. abit stretched here..
i.. know this is mushy, but i really want to thank yishu for helping me and making the meetings every thurs bearable.. -thank you-

need to spend more time with him, but we are sooooooooooooooooooo busy..
tmr there's CF video shoot (and yishu has blood donation drive.. anyone interested??)
sun --- CF discussion abt bazaar in the morning, and NVAC camp starts in afternoon
mon-wed/thurs --- NVAC camp!!!!!
fri --- working
sat --- irene's bday!!!!!
sun --- working

see!!! the whole of this and next week will be paaaaaaccccccccccckkkkkked
no time no time!!!
no time to buy irene's present, no time to pei my parents, no time to pei yishu, no time to spend time with my frens, no time for KTV, no time for shopping~~~~~!!!!!!
speaking of which, shopping's like on the bottom of my list la.. i'm overspending already..

was really touched with something he said yday..
was telling him wont be able to spend time with him for a long time 'cause we both have busy schedules.. and the most recent 'open slot' will be this sat's dinner..
and he said 'but you will most prob like to spend time with your family right?'
and i was so toucheddddd..
really.. he not only understands me and is understanding of my actions.. won't be unhappy because i want to spend time with my parents.. understands tt they are impt to me.. and supports me in what i do..

but like we always say.. wait for another 2 mths before coming to a conclusion about that.. this is well, the period of time where you are nice and all.. wait for 2-3 more months and the bad sides will show up!!!!

but.. well.. hahahah... ya.. hurrrr...
yeayea!!

so touched to know that people are worried!!! -selfishly-
anyway, i'm ok!!!! really.. just that sometimes expectations can really kill..
so does heavy workload...
i'm dying from CF~~~
actually no la.. still alive and kicking.. just that, i think, my schedule for the next 2 weeks will be so super busy.. well, you don't really want to know that details... its superrrrrrrrrrrr busy de...

loo's bday is over!!!!! this is late, but er...
HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY TO LOO AND ANT!!!!!!

its a very nice feeling to be so close to a fren and her family.. like, helping out with the party and all.. if i'm the bday girl, i'll prob feel bad troubling my frens lidat.. but hey!!! i really really really really really had fun helping her!!
helping her blow the balloons, tying the balloons and adding ribbons, doing her hair for her, tying up loose ends and helping in every single possible way..
its just soooooo funnnnn~~~~!!!

so, next up!!
irene's party!!!!
this time round loo will be missing.. so, xiang!! lets help irene tgt!!!!
and loo!! we will miss you at irene's party de~~

i realise tt i really like the number 19..
number 11 too~!! -grins-
and number 8...

有人说，有时候失望也是一种幸福。 因为还有让你感到失望的事。
是真的吗？ 失望也可以幸福吗？

如果有选择，你希望你的他会对你有期望吗？
有期望，就会有失望。
可是做的到没有期望吗？
我一定不可以。因为我很自私。
可以无条件地接受对方吗？ 自私的我应该做不到。

开始对自己没有信心。
开始想逃避。
对… 想逃避…

ok.. today, 11th June 2006, is a happy day!!
not gonna tell you kaypo guys out there why though!!
it's.. erm.. just a happy thing that happened..
(those i've been updating should know why la HOR??)

ok ok if you really want to know can ask me -bleah-

认为自己很独立，后来才发现很想有一个肩膀依靠。
自己不再是一个人，而是两个人。
因为以前是一个人，所以开始保护自己，开始冰冻自己。
并没有料到会突然天气晴朗。真的很突然。
有肩膀让我靠…

i've picked up his habit of stating analogies!! hahahaha realised tt while on the phone with yishu last night.. gave him stupid analogies and thought they sounded familiar..
and.. talked about alot of things..

ya maybe he really will like drinking water as much as you do and keep reminding me to do that..
maybe he really will like satay beehoon as much as me and will acc me go..
hahahaha.. anyway.. talked about alot of things with him as well.. he tells me to go with my feeling..
tells me to not give myself deadlines..
tells me to just relax and be myself..
tells me not to let anything stop me from love except me myself..
tells me not to choose someone who reminds me of him.. 'cause it didn't end well...

and.. i miss him gg scolding me for all the bruises i have all the time =x 'cause i didn't take good care of myself... and then he will rub for me..

but... you know... something is stopping me and i don't know what..
just.. being afraid..

ok don't say that le!
well i have SOME pics on sat's ECP.. er.. kop-ed from irene's photobucket.. hee.. paiseh, girl.. i din ask..

ok i'm not gonna post everything.. just some nice ones.. can link to irene's post (again).. 'cause hers, as usual, is very detailed..
irene's post


i think this is the nicest pic we took!!! 'cause its taken with 3 mei nus inside you see..


love this pic too.. the blue sky.. blue sea...
oh no~~ i'm starting to miss ECP le... hey girls~!! lets go SENTOSA!!!!! okok?!!!


this is me n loo on skates.. surprisingly we survived la.. er.. though with bruises all over our body, i think.. ok.. i had bruise.. =x


irene should go endorse McDonald's with this picture la.. i'm sure they will gladly take her and put the pic at ECP's Mc la.. pretty endorser leh..


this.. is.. so.. SUNNY!!!!! pretty, don't you think.. the weather was so fine that day!!! oh no.. i'm really missing the beach... let's so sentosa~!!! ok i shall call irene to plan NOW~!!!! before loo sets off for aussie..

we actually took some meteor-garden-like-pictures.. but.. cannot post la.. hahahaha psst!! irene!! loo!! can post anot??? hahahaha
but.. i think those 3 we took are niceeeeee la..

ok first!!
sorry to ALLLLL those who have been checking my blog faithfully, waiting for me to update my blog!! but you see, i have to work consecutively for SIX days, so i'm deadddddd tired la, by the time i reach home.. so i havent had the time to come online, much less update.. even my tv serials also not much time to watch!!

but! gotta give credit to yishu for fetching me almost every night, although he has to pia at 140km/h (probably) all the way to kallang/bedok for supper!! he's part of the reason why i can survive 6 consecutive days of working..
quoting from him.. i have a speedy, comfy and safe ride home in a 933 tuned car waiting for me..
thanks...

ok next!!
i...
went...
ECP!!!!!!!!
tanning and blading with loo n irene tdy!! super shuang la!! yishu woke me up and we talked for awhile.. ended up pia-ing.. in the end.. the girls woke up at 10!!!! (i hanged up with him @ 930 la.. tot i was gonna be seriously late..)
then!! i had to think of what to wear.. =\ had to call them to compromise what to wear.. =x so tts like, part of the reason why we're late la.. hahahahaha

went blading (oh.. did i say tt alr..??)
and i had a very bad fall.. like i said when i first wore the skates.. i must be sick of living la.. go and rent skates.. then immediately i had a fall liao.. not a bad one though...
THEN, was on our way back and had to go up the slope.. so irene said must go faster then can go up slope.. so.. i increased speed (note: i'm a newbie) and was doing fine until i suddenly FELL!!! was a very bad fall.. think irene n loo also xia dao.. injured my hipbone.. got this very bad buise.. =(

gotta say special thanks to IRENE!! she nice-ly rented bike and took great care of me and loo while the 2 of us very zhao si-ly went blading.. ya but we returned the skates in 1 piece!!! the skates were in seperate pieces, of course..
i meant.. me and loo were in one piece(s)... =x

after blading.. is...
tanning!!!!
ya its weird to sun-tan at ECP.. but we did nonethless-ly.. sat at the break-water there and sun-tanned.. took TONS of spastic fotos and talked.. come to think of it, we din talk much also.. hahahaha we just took fotos and proving to irene tt the fotos are nice NOT BECAUSE she is in it.. hahahaha ok only the 3 of us know the joke..

tiredly...

ya think i kena sun-burnt liao la.. gotta apply the aloe vera like its free to prevent peelingggggg... 'cause kor kor's wedding coming.. must look nice!! need to maintain the color, without the peeling part.. ya.. i think i look tanner.. HEY GIRLS!! we gotta kip the tanning sessions up ok? before tt, i think i need another trip back to bugis!!! hahahaha

ya and yishu picked us up at parkway.. 'cause the 3 of us didn't want to take the long journey back home, so we were actually looking for a lift from either justin or yishu.. and he nicely said he dont mind picking us up, so i called him and asked him if he could do us the favour.. and he said ok! ya so he made a trip down and drove us home.. *paiseh-ly*

anyway.. thanks, yishu..

yupz! tts abt everything.. for the pictures, gotta wait la.. we took so many fotos, hafta wait.. hahahaha all is zi lian fotos, though.. so, they're actually much better for us to keep in our com and not for posting online!!

finished tiredly...

will update after my bro's wedding!!!!!