Sunday, April 30, 2006
曾经有没有一个人让你觉得
‘天啊！我们的想法怎么那么像？’
现在我就遇到了一个。让我觉得想法很像。写的东西也很像。
都喜欢 talk in riddles..
people like to protect themselves.
survival intincts..
is being over-protective not good? not just from physical hurt..
and the emotional factor as well..
people don't like to give, we only like to receive.. but we seldom realise that without giving anything, you can't expect anything back in return..
this is the rule of equivalent trade.. (if you don't know what is that, please go and watch Full Metal Alchemist ok..)
会不会有时候不知道是喜欢还是习惯。是喜欢有这个人在身边还是习惯有个人在身边？很难分辨吧。
no no i don't have this problem.. i'm just curious.. this problem was solved around 1 year ago..
for me, that is.... so many plans after my exams..
gotta work.. having some meet-ups with friends.. and to prepare for korkor's wedding.. and i want to sign up for some courses..
i wonder if i have the time... still have to clear the anime!!
anyway, somebody said to bring me go
window shopping.. unfortunately, i have a surprisingly good memory for stuff like this.. so...
DON'T LIE TO ME!!
i have a surprisely good episodic memory, although my semantic memory malfunctions.. (if you don't know what that means, try taking PL3233 - Cognitive Psychology for a sem then you will know.. -smiles-)
speaking of which, i guess i really don't like it when people lie to me.. last night i realised something.. i finally understand why some people don't like to make promises.. when you make a promise, the other party will have expectations right.. and expectations can result in huge disappointments as well.. like, really huge ones..
you can understand alot of things so much better as you grow older.. i can't say i've been through more, but i think i can understand better, and know that there are actually alot of grey areas..
swimming + tanning session!!!! like loo said, feel so unhealthy!!!! i'm gonna go swimming and (hopefully) get a nice tan after the exams!! and get a nice outfit (on top on shedding some weight) for korkor's wedding!!!
new wishlist.... [x]uan @ 22:54
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Saturday, April 29, 2006
i've been considering like, for the past almost 1 month whether i should sign up for this program.. then i finally decided and submitted the form!!!
like, on the last day of appliaction..don't ask me why i signed up for it.. i just feel like it..
anyway, i am not in the mood to study!!!!
shit la.. i have to get into the studying mood again!!! 1 last paper to go!!! liling and cerise and irene are going to start grinning to themselves when they see this
because they finish their exams already!!! ok cerise's over in 4 mins and liling's in 244 mins.. xiang say i never write in my
lists of things to do after exams any plans with them..
so now i'm gonna write it down!!
ktv with xiang + irene (and hopefully loo) after exams!!!!!! Poseidon looks nice.. hmm but i don't have movie khakis.. i only have ktv khahis and shopping khakis..
-oops- ok and anime khakis..
haaa.. speaking of which, i'm gonna invade liling and irene's hse after exams for all the animes!!!!! back to my 'Multiple Correlation and Multiple Regression'.....[x]uan @ 10:56
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Thursday, April 27, 2006
finally!!!!!!! my cognitive paper is over!!!! hahahahahaha no more carrying that blue book and going from home --- ntu/nus and back!!!
lalalalalala~~ok the paper sucks tho.. ya its over but its a sucky paper.. so i shall not be too happy.. must be sad abit.. =(
ok so i'm only left with my stats..
which will hopefully be better than stats I.. considering the fact that I believe Dr Sim is not gay.. -oops-
i will start studying tomorrow!!! i want to do well for stats!!!
-super sleepy-
i'm suffering from serious lack of sleep la..
weili saw me b4 the cog paper and he asked me: 'you how many days never sleep already?'
shit la!! i really look THAT tired ah?!!! this afternoon in the library was horrible la..
i think evelyn tot what happened to me la.. like i was crying or sth lidat.. =x anyway, i wanted to scan my helpsheet for
drugs & Society then upload de.. but i'm
too tired liao.. will do it another day when i regained my sleep...
ciao~~
[x]uan @ 23:09
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Tuesday, April 25, 2006
i haven't blogged for like...
two days?!!!!! anybody missed me???
even if you don't, please lie to me ok... write my helpsheet for
drugs & society until i'm super sian-ed..
so small~!!! i think i need to bring a magnifying glass during the exams.. then i can use the magnifying glass to
magnify the miniature words i wrote on my helpsheet..
but.. what if.. my helpsheet caught fire halfway through my exams how?!! then it will cause a fire in MPSH!!!! then maybe the exams will be postponed because they cannot possibly risk the lives of the students right?!!
but seriously, i think the lecturers will run out of the hall first, of which Dr Goh will be the fastest because she's on wheels... =x i finally know what made me buy the
0.28 tip pen that time.. because subconsciously, i am thinking about the helpsheet that i need to write!! now that pen has come in like, super handy la.. my words are
suuuuppppeeerrr smallllllll...if a bombing or a fire ever takes place in the
library of NUS during exams time, i'm sure half the school's population will kena la..
what a good way to get rid of intellectual people in the country right..
i wonder why do all those terrorists want to go to so much trouble to hijack a plane when things can be done so much more simply.. ok i'm JOKING!!!! just realised how busy i am
after the exams..
thinking about activities after exams is what keeps me going ok!! ok.. here goes..
1) shopping for cerise's pressie
2) KTV session with the girls (aka cerise + liling)
3) meet up with
lotsa people (like hy, pher...)
4) help to get ready for kor kor's wedding
5) shopping with irene / shopping with PS
6) loo's pressie + ant's pressie
on top of which,
i am working!!!! best liao la.. exams haven't end, already i can sense how hectic i am going to be.. =\
[x]uan @ 13:26
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Saturday, April 22, 2006
yes lame title.. anyway, i went JP aft my studying-cum-bonding-with-xiang session today.. supposed to meet kim de, then loo ask me want to go JP anot, and i said ok.. so i told kim i cant le,
then loo don't want to go liao..
therefore the conclusion is, i met up with kim for dinner... ok before anybody starts to scold me... i haven't seen him in ages.. hahaha..
ya met up and chit chat la.. sms/online/chat on phone with kim is useless de.. he's glued to the PC playing DOTA
whole day de.. so have to call him out and drag him away from the PC then can... hahaha..
chit-chatted lor.. talked about er... rubbish.. he told me abt the winnie the pooh story..
which is damn funny la!!! hahahaha
buy an xtra ticket for the winnie to take the plane and come back spore.. =x kidding!!!
i saw so many ppl at JP today!! -surprise surprise- er.. there's
Jeffrrey Yee Zhengyi, Brian Wong (swiss sj), weiwen.. btw.. kim ah.. don't forget you owe me something regarding jeffrey's pay hor.. no point trying to act blur.. i will remind you de.. -hiaks hiaks-then kim told me some things which i think about and ar.. ya i think he's right.. so i shall heed his advice!!! quite nice to hear some views from guys themselves...
and i hence concluded some stuff.. =)
nice~~
thanks alot, kim.. =)
xiang said i really like smart ppl.. ya i like smart ppl.. like, really smart that kind..
没有心机，很单纯的。他的一举一动都很容易猜透，很容易了解。他不会做作，对待每一个人都是真诚的。做的事虽然比较不同，可是真的很可爱。
很真。
因为寂寞而跟一个人在一起，只会让自己更寂寞。
那双肩膀已经刻上名字了。不是我的名字。
不喜欢在晚上自己一个人走回家…
[x]uan @ 22:30
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Friday, April 21, 2006
this is post-calculus-cum-japanese-exam destress... before i embark on cognitive psyc and drugs & society..
you think edmund will study with me if i asked??? hahaha maybe not la.. i think i will keep asking questions and make him irritated la... me n PS called him last night to ask him calculus la...
and he told me today he was out cycling!!!! omg... 'cause he say he cannot sleep so go cycle... and there i was pia-ing calculus till 3am lah... machiam like panda for the rest of the week liao la... ok i know this will sound really ironic, but i realised that guys who are
super straight forward can be pretty scary also...
-oops- see what i mean when i say i'm gonna sound contradicting.. here goes.... straight forward is good. like, don't po po ma ma and beat around the bush and not say anything after that...
but
too straight forward is not good you see.. =) you can be wang zhuan but cannot be po po ma ma.. ya i think thats how i feel... hahaha..
yes i am a demanding person who knows my own standard.. so don't ask me about it 'cause i duno myself!!!!!!! hahahahahahahanext time if i cannot find a job and i'm single, i will go and be insurance agent.. hahaha.. think the pay quite good also.. =x then maybe i can shun bian find a bf also!!!!
hahahah kim is gonna blow his top when he sees this... i'm not making fun of you!!! i swear!!! hahaha... i like the lyrics in 张惠妹's 我要快乐..
有些人 不抱了才温暖 离开了才不恨 ya maybe that was how i felt.. so i like this song... [x]uan @ 20:15
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Thursday, April 20, 2006
ok.. moral of the story..
don't blog
everything that happens in everyday life.. =
zhang hanxiang!!!! i have so many things to update you!!!
when are you coming to find your bf?!!!! ok anyway..
HI WEIWEN!!!!!!!!! =) i'm so so so dead for calculus... ok according to advice from PS, i'm supposed to memorize the answers..
like hell la!!! i'm super lousy at memory work can... -sigh-and arh.. that stupid edmund got like, 14 for stats quiz?!!!! er.. i duno..
nearly full marks la.. damn.. hate him... =x ok i don't hate him.. hahaha..
d-day's tml!!!!
to xiang + irene: want to find xiang's bf this sat??? i nid some entertainment from studying -winkx-
[x]uan @ 09:33
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Wednesday, April 19, 2006
there's a
calculus guy..
now there's another
tissue guy...
great lah... anyway, for the benefit of xiang
-in case she decides to jump off from 3rd floor in the lib and crash a pc AND still have to pay for the repairs of the pc after her papers tml- *breathes*
ok... what happens is...
before i left the library
(ard 5+), the
tissue guy came back to the lib..
from which i assume he stays in hall.. er.. like, ALL ntu students stay in hall??? hahahahathen i was walking back to seat and bumped into him on the way la.. then i said 'hi' and chatted for awhile lo..
-end of story-
(contents of conversation confidential.. exclusive to my good friends!!!) hahaha..
hahaha sorry to disappoint the hopefuls ah.. =x
my d-day is coming too.. this friday..
and i still know nuts about calculus..
speaking of which, i saw edmund in school today!!! so qiao...
[x]uan @ 20:12
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Tuesday, April 18, 2006
i've kena xiang's habit of blogging from sch!!!
damn.. someone should ban students from using the PC for entertainment purposes during exam periods.. we should be glued to the seats from the time we reach the lib till we leave.. and am i hearing thunder AGAIN?!!!! it's been raining for the past few days la..
everyday i'm in NTU,
everyday it rains.. dun like me izit?!!!
what did i want to say....oh ya!!!
some nice guy gave me a packet of tissue paper and a postcard just now!!
-grinx- someone from ntu that i don't know..
ok the full story goes like this..
there is this guy i have seen around in ntu,
who comes to the lib for the same mugging reason.. so today he happened to sit behind me
diagonally.... and as
usual (if you know me well enough), i succumbed to the
devillish aircon demon today again.. started sneezing like siao..
xuan.. u're straying liao..ok... what happens is.. i went to the washroom ard 11+.. and when i came back, there is a packet of tissue and a postcard from a guy who didn't leave his name.. all he said was
'from the guy who was sitting diagonally behind you in the morning'.. ok so now you ask (as loo did)
how you know its him?!! actually, i don't.. when i came back from the washroom and saw the stuff, he left already.. so i assumed its him.. not taking into account the fact that the people sitting around me today happens to be all guys (
with 2 china guys talking in front of me super irritating-ly)luckily he specifies
'in the morning'.. because the guy who took his seat after he left..
chang de you dian bao qian.. =x i'm not trying to be discriminating ok!!!
well, i hope to see him again and say
'thanks'never leave name, never leave number..
how to say thanks?!!! i'm a super polite person ok.. =Þ
i forgot to mention that.. i especially brought 2 packets of tissue to sch today... now i have 3.. =\[x]uan @ 14:37
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Monday, April 17, 2006
they are here to haunt us again!!! when i'm awake, and sometimes when i'm sleeping!!!
-sigh- don't think i can finish my syllabus la.. so much to study for!!!
see! ling shi bao fuo jiao again!!!!! no motivation to study!!!
was on my way home just now when i saw
Superband on the TV Mobile.. G-Force(Jeremy's group) was on la... then there's this group of NJ guys on the same bus and they were commenting that their performance is super gay.. and changed their name to
Gay-Force -.-" walau!! so
bu ge mian zi..but.. the way they perform is really
abit duh... 3 guys dancing like girls... =
then when i reach home and on the TV to same show.. then i saw sth worse..
what's wrong with chong qing's hair?!!!! he kana lightning stike before the recording ah?? it's so ugly la!!!
Superband doesn't mean he has to
rock with them la.. the hair stylist should kena fired liao la..
the
Mi Yun 20 Tian is super lame... how can anyone be so stupid???
omg... [x]uan @ 21:34
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Sunday, April 16, 2006
[x]uan @ 20:55
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i'm currently chatting with this person and i realised 2 things..
first..
i
really don't like wishy-washy guys.. like, if you want to say something, shoot.. don't beat around the bush.. even if it means asking for help.. ok maybe its because i'm a really direct person and i don't like to dilly-dally around, just trying to put a point across..
make a clear statement!!!! you beat around the bush then end the conversation with a 'nvm'.. its so -duh- so what am i supposed to do ne???
esp when its a guy who's doing this.. worse.. you just leave the conversation hanging around with no conclusion.. like, you talk to me only because i might be useful.. its so
kiam pa..
second..
i don't like people who don't do their own work
and look for help the wrong way when their due-date is nearing..
wrong way literally means looking for a finished paper from someone else to submit.. i mean, i'm always rushing for due dates and asking my friends about the paper last minute..
but, i don't look for a completed paper to submit.. i do my own.. if i get a low grade, then its all my own fault because i did a sloppy job.. how can you look for a paper from somebody else and submit it as your own!! having the paper due soon is
no excuse to do this kind of irresponsible thing..
this,
is equally kiam pa... yes.. i didn't even want to talk to this person further.. this person
nearly ended up in my list of 'blocked personnel'..
[x]uan @ 13:14
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Thursday, April 13, 2006
supposed to be
si ma lu bai bai today with loo.. yes exams coming so we wana go
bai bai.. you see.. not smart enough so have to go
ling shi bao fuo jiao..
i reached early.. so went to the provision shop to buy some stuff.. ended i bought a little too much la.. loo say i machaim go picnic lidat.. -hmph-
and.. loo told me... irene never went to the temple before!!!!
see what i mean? smart ppl has no need to ling shi bao fuo jiao.. so no need pray one.. hai
zzzzzzzzzz~~~ended up, we like shop more than we study la.. the national library's study room is
chisai~~!!!! totemo chisai heya desu~!!!!! its super small lah.. not much seats also.. ended up we went to Coffe Bean at bugis... studied abit there..
we should've stayed there right from the beginning lah.. carry my heavy heavy stuff and walk around.. super tiring~~ so we studied for awhile, then leave liao.. -_-" well at lease we
studied!!! but not efficient enough la, i guess..
left in the evening..
with me cancelling tuition under loo's psycho-ing.. actually i only wana push back to 7, but he has church at 730.. so no choice la.. make up on sat lo.. in the end, we went to plaza!! 'cause i wana go IP Zone see jacket..
and i spent money again!!! been spending money like siao this week la.. i have to begin my retreat beginning tml.. be a
hermit!!!! study!! know and do nothing else..
but, the point is, the jacket is super nice!!!
well since i bought it liao so of course must say its nice la!! feel bad to loo and irene though.. like hai them waste time to accompany me there and still have to keep answering my same question over and over again!!!
kept asking whether it is nice!! =x sumimasen!!!! reached home and daddy gave me some money for the jacket!! which makes me feel really bad.. because my daddy's always so nice to me.. i wana pamper myself by buying a jacket.. like, my pay is all saved up, so i want to spend abit and spoil myself abit.. like, buy something liao then tell myself i have to
stop buying!!!! but daddy dotes on me so much, he gave me money for things i buy!!
which makes me feel really bad!! like i'm wasting money..
my daddy's always so nice to me.. never scolds me for wasting money.. everything i buy, he will definitely say its nice.. very supportive.. whatever i wana do, he will always support me and be there for me..
i love my daddy!!!!really.. sometimes parents can be rather irritating.. but that doesn't mean i don't love them.. i may raise my voice sometimes but i love them alot alot alot alot...
really~~~~
[x]uan @ 21:19
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Wednesday, April 12, 2006
doing the feedback thingy.. for more bidding points..
hahahaha as usual... psyc students need alot of points, you see..
this is the time of the year when you get to see the lecturer's photo..
and i got the biggest shock of my life!!! first, is my Morita Sensei.. i've
always seen her as a very pretty and young lady. then i saw the photo in her profile!!!! she looks old!!!! but.. she is
very pretty in real life.. maybe 'cause her hair was long in the photo thats why makes her look old..
now.. some people really look nicer with short hair, you see... then came the 2nd and the biggest shock that made me wana blog immediately!!! i saw Dr Goh's photo!!!!!
oh my god!!!!!!
he looks super different la.. he looks so much thinner and with so much more hair.. =x
he looks really young back then... see what psychology does to you.. especially cog psyc.. look at Chua Fook Kee... weird man.. and now poor Dr Goh.. put on weight.. =x
anway, what i wana say is that, my lecturer look so diff la..
thats all. =)
[x]uan @ 21:31
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anyone listen's to SMAP here?? they have this real meaningful song.. no idea whats the title of the song..
anyway, my tutor played us the song yday, and explained to us the meaning of the song..
my tutor said, the main meaning of the song is that humans always compare ourselves with one another.. but flowers don't do that.. so, it's not necessary to subject yourself to comparison with someone else, bacause you are the
only one in this world..
and i thought it was so meaningful.. life is so stressful sometimes that you forget things.. striving to be at the top, working hard to be successful, wanting to outshine others..
and its really no point.. why do you want to compare yourself with someone else?? the 2 of you are just not comparable.. because you are 2 individual beings.. you are special, incomparable..
so what if you're not good at your studies? so what if you're lousy at sports? so what if you're not pretty? so what if you're bad at relationships?? you are special to the people whom you know.. people love you because you are special..
so please never never feel inferior because you're not as outstanding as someone else... i sound naggy... hahaha.. anyway, been going out to study nowadays,
i'm broke!!!! gotta stay at home more and
stop spending money on unnecessary stuff!!!! waste of money...
but there's so many things to buy!! i want a jacket!! and a bag!!! =x
yes.. the way women see bags, shoes and clothings are like how humans see money..
never enough...[x]uan @ 20:44
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Sunday, April 09, 2006
don't feel like sleeping tonight.. no idea why also.. must be study too hard liao.. abit hormonal inbalance, so pms..
yes i am KIDDING.. now you get my point??anyway, just feel like staying up and talking to alot alot of people.. but hardly anyone online.. its times like this that i feel like going mIRC..
but..
how old liao?!! still go IRC?!! will wana outcasted by all the di di mei mei one lor..
was reading
xiang's blog and the 1st picture i was has the cao meng CD inside!!! in case you guys have no idea, cao meng (aka grasshopper) is a boyband from many many yrs ago..
shit.. that made me sound old.. anyway, i saw the CD and it brought back so much memories of pri sch.. of alot of things back then and reminded me of someone too.. the girls will know la..
-shhh-the nicest thing in this whole world is probably memories.. memory can be such a wonderful thing.. acts like a filter and only remembers the things that you want to remember.. no wonder my textbook says, rapid forgetting can be beneficial...
i remember reading a book once that says.. a person should always remain happy.. because a person's life will definitely be longer than the unhappiness that he/she will experience.. 因为生命一定会比不快乐的事长久，所以还是开心一点比较好吧。
如果每个人在生气/不开心前，都会这样想，世界会不会美一点、快乐一点？
还好人的一生中，最后留下的都是快乐的回忆。记忆是最好的日记，最好的相簿吧？里面有的，全都是快乐的回忆。
最后我们分开了
虽然还是朋友
但做回朋友的情人
想摆脱关系不太容易
寂寞变成了习惯
习惯靠着孤单
想念该遗忘
不该在身旁
陪着我的每个夜晚
我 只 想 对着天空轻轻的呼吸
寻找我最爱的人到底在哪里
在慌乱中
翻箱倒柜寻找记忆
有一种爱它曾经住在我心里
陪伴我熬过多少个无声哭泣
不懂爱情
我的心如此无力
其实我很清醒
其实我很冷静
看着眼泪滴过在手心
最后我们分开了
虽然还是朋友
[x]uan @ 02:04
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Friday, April 07, 2006
as people grows up, you will realise that alot of things you believe in are no longer the same.. especially when it comes to relationships.. i wonder if this is what they mean by 'growing up mentally'
as i grow up, i realise that loving a person doesn't mean that you have to be with that person..
although that would be the most ideal situation.. and realised that there really is no such thing as 'being fair' in a relationship.. 'cause things are not fair to begin with.. 你不可能爱我就好像我爱你一样。 也不可能爱我如我爱你一样深。
所以，爱情一开始就不是公平的。
所以不需要以为对不起谁而感到内疚。这不是内疚，是施舍。
而且，如果是施舍的话，那我更不需要。这一点尊严我还是有的。
所以不需要因为觉得对不起某个人而放弃追求另一段缘分。这样做只会让你自己好过一点而已。对他而言，一点意义都没有。
以前觉得在爱情里,有很多事都不可以。长大后，慢慢发觉爱情不是绝对的对或错。 或者应该说，爱情没有对或错。你和我也不是神，没有权力决定一个人在一段恋情里的罪。
混蛋例外。
[x]uan @ 16:44
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Wednesday, April 05, 2006
ok!! MSN rules!! we all know that..
sometimes i feel that mIRC is so much more convenient.. as long as i know the person's nick then i can go talk to the specific someone liao.. with MSN being the 'in' thing ah, i have to know his email acc to talk to him!!! so mafan.. so, i definitely think that mIRC is better when you want to talk to the guy of your dreams..
MSN is better for
not wanting to talk to that particular someone...
so, now i have the MSN add!!!!
muahahahahahahahaaaaai laff like gen... oh well... she influenced me!!! but i still don't dare to talk.. hahaha
i'm shy.... and being the typical female who
loves shopping ah, even buying pens can be such a chore.. i just went to buy a pilot G-2 refill that day 'cause i badly needed a pen for writing.. my own pen was spoilt and cannot use liao...
being students for 14 yrs, you should understand by now that everyone has a pen that he/she is used to using.. cannot change liao.. for me, i use pilot G-Tech.. so that refill is like, spare-pen lah.. so i have to buy a new G-Tech..
so i went to the Science Co-op today to look for a G-Tech.. but
all of us know that G-Tech is bl***y expensive and i don't know why too.. and i'm abit reluctant, looking at the price.. then uniball caught my eye!! they have pens with
0.28 tip!!!
yes i like pens with super fine tips..now i'm stuck between G-Tech and uniball.. 'cause i used to using G-Tech but uniball is so much cheaper and finer somemore..
i really don't know which pen to buy!!!!!! so guess what?!!!!
i bought both!!!!!! -_-"
yes i know what expression you're wearing now...
being
a typical
indecisive-shopaholic-female-who-thinks-she-has-too-much-money-to-spare person, i bought a little
too many pens for my coming exams...
speaking of which, brings me to the exams!!!
the most hated time of the year is here to haunt us again!!!!
mugging mugging mugging.........[x]uan @ 20:05
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Sunday, April 02, 2006
went to NTU to study with irene and xiang yday..
actually, i only met up with irene 'cause xiang didn't seem steady abt it and she didn't ask again whether we're gg watz..
so me n irene reached
Lee Wee Nam Library and found a place to sat down.. then i msg xiang and ask her if she's coming to NTU to study with us!!
she replied and said she will see how first lo.. so i told her we're at
'the only place she can study in NTU'..
then suddenly!! she appeared in front of us!!! -_-"
she's in the lib all this while and she lied to us!!!!!!
hahahahaha.. stupid girl... irene told some1 really fat banged into her when it's xiang who wana surprise us!!! so the 3 of us are now gathering at xiang's bf's place...
she claimed that her bf is Wee Nam... so in love with him sia....
and, i studied!! not alot, but it's
something for a start.. today is supposed to be
'webcast-day'.. but until now, i haven't done anything yet!!! shall start real soon..
going to xiang's bf's place tml again!!!
eh xiang ah!! very tiring to keep saying 'xiang's bf's place' leh..
[x]uan @ 11:52
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