blogging from school now.. haven't sat down and used the PC in a long long time.. if not for my prj, i think i won't be here too..

ya waiting for the next lec alone, and need to print out my paper to hand in, so here i am!!

speaking of my project, i really really wana complain about this project mate of mine, but i already complained to so many people, no longer feel the anger liao.. so.. hahaha i shall spare him the agony of being scolded again..

but.. being a guy, and being so.. er.. useless????
yes i'm sexist.. if a girl in my project group doesn't contribute, fine.. its ok with me.. i'll just treat her as a bimbo.. well, just an example ya~~

but if a guy in my project doesn't contribute, then i will see him as a pretty useless guy la.. especially when he 'ya ya' to everything i say, and keep dragging my deadline in the end, hence causing trouble to all of us, then i think something is seriously wrong!! i mean, if you don't know how to write or blah blah blah.. just tell me!! i will just see you as a lazy guy.. but you create trouble for us by delaying the stuff and not doing a proper job somemore, then i will just think you are mei you yong and give us trouble only lo..

if you can't do it, tell me!! then i will settle it la.. now you make us rush through so many things..
haiz.. i'm not scolding him already.. just feel that guys ah.. sometimes can be pretty irritating..

so you see how i always say i will be left on the shelf??
i don't like guys who cannot perform.. buy smart guys won't like me 'cause i'm stupid!! =x so sad right.... hahahahah

ya i have a soft spot for smart guys... the smarter they are, the better.. but of course, other factors count too.. so girl-friends out there who are attached! intro smart guys to me ok? hahaha...

yes yes i'm kidding again... bad sense of humour la can?!!! =p

no no no i'm not drinking.. hahaha just viewing a webcast which is talking about alcohol..
and i start to lose concentration on the webcast... starting thinking about something that happened very long ago.. about the effects of alcohol, and how it makes ppl talk alot after the initial few drinks.. i think its pretty true la.. the most wonderful thing is that ther person cannot remember what he said after he became sober!!

so girlfriends!!! down ur bf a few drinks before asking questions yeah.. i tot it's pretty effective.. =)
i tot bf(s) who speak under the influence of alcohol can be pretty cute at times.. hahahahaha...

hmm come to think of it, i have never drink before! maybe i should visit a pub some time soon~~ exam stress!!!

*blows*
haven't updated in quite awhile, my blog is collecting dust liao!!!

don't really know what to say also..

每个人在一生当中都会扮演不同的角色。

有些在你生命最失落的时候出现。你恢复了，他就走了。
那就是过客。
他可能是你的过客，你也可能是他的过客。
在彼此伤心的时候，互相依赖。

有些人，和男/女朋友分手了，天天打电话给你。
很伤心地告诉你他有多难过，生活有多痛苦，他还是很想念她。
可是过了一阵子，那些电话没有再打来了。
后来你发现，他交了一个新的女朋友。
你或许会生气，说他交了新的女朋友就忘了这个陪他度过伤心日子的人。
其实你有什么好气的？你不就是他生命里的浮木罢了。
在需要时，紧紧抓住。
既然他已经生存了，还要你这片浮木来干吗。
直到他再次失恋，不然他应该不会再找你了。

pms-ing mode....

please!!!!!!!!!!! let me win the Nokia 3250 in the arts central contest!!!!!
hahahahaha siao la..
but.. please!! i want to win!!! =x

oh new animation is here, and another one coming up..
its nice!!!! Witch Hunter Robin
watched the 1st episode that day and i thought its nice..
i'm not watching TV series anymore.. the only shows i'm watching nowadays are animes.. and webcasts.. oh!! and da chang jing.. er.. the small chang jing is cute!!!!!

hmm... so sian..

back to webcasts..

so many things flooding up my brain and having so many different types of feelings all at one time. so many things i wana tell so many different people..

anger..
worried..
sad..

to her: you must be strong, girl.. i know its tough and i know it hurts.. if you need to be weak, i am always here for you to lean on.. i am really really very thankful that you told me what happened.. i am happy that i can share with you.. though i cannot help, but i can lend you my listening ear.. you have to make the decisions yourself.. only you can save yourself.. but all of us will be here to help you.. remember you are not alone, ok??? we love you... please stay happy..

to him: what you told me that day really upsets me.. i have no idea i brought so much trouble to you.. sorry.. you didn't want to be frank with me and just keeps avoiding everything.. and that only makes it worse.. please be frank.. be brave and tell me!!! what i want to know.. and what i need to know.. i believe it is my right that you tell me.. afterall, it concerns me, doesn't it??? i really hope things will clear up abit soon..

and to everybody... please please please stay happy..

which i don't... which explains why i'm blogging abt this.. because if i have 1, i will keep this to myself and do it!!!!

ok back to the topic.
if i have a bf who turns 21 this yr, i will persuade him out of celebrating his bday.
and hold a surprise party for him!!!

i will book a cafe/restaurant/chalet
then notify all his friends to act like they forgot his bday.
and to not tell him about the party thingy.
then i will 'lure' him to the venue of the party, and surprise him!!!!
=)
ain't i nice???

but.. i don't even have a bf la... =x

anybody wants to be my bf after reading this??? =)

kidding

anyway, don't copy my idea ok..
if you need to, please seek my permission (and pay me a sum of money for my creativity)
okay tts a joke too

not that i think anybody would look at my wish list, but there are some changes!!
i don't want a new phone anymore!!!
instead, i want a pair of Papillio and a crumpler!!!

-sigh-
you know.. wishlist = you wish to get..
and wish = quite impossible to get

too much maths nowadays..
btw, i think the calculus test was okie! surprisingly!! well i got study one ok!!!
actually, its because the lecturer is lazy and doesn't change the question. just change the values only.. format of the questions are the same!!

ok i have to study now!!!! now now now!!!!!!!!!!

i send a birthday message to a particular person every year since a few years ago.
and this message is the only message i will send this person every year.
those 3 crazy girls in my primary school might remember.. =)
-remember?? the heart throbe of our year??? hahahaha-

yupz!! today is his birthday.. realised that while i was looking through the calendar, halfway when i was doing my essay..
you caught me! i wasn't INTO doing the essay at all..

anyway, sometimes i think to myself.. why do i bother doing it anyway. its not like he's gonna appreciate it and send me a message on MY birthday, right.... i doubt he even remembers my birthday lo... oh wait!! maybe he doesn't KNOW when's my birthday in the first place.. =\

ya i'm crapping away la..
just sian of doing the essay la..
but gotta pia finish tonight..
looks like my dreams and determination of jogging tomorrow is gonna be smashed again!!!

he is attached!!!!! tts so fast can!!!! hahahaha but anyway..


it came as a complete shock la.. i was browsing friendster when i went to his page and i was like.. blink blink blink.. and i know the girl as well!!!!!

hahahaha really happy for him though.. as least i know she is a nice girl.. =)
well, abit sad he didn't tell me though.. still dare to tell me he thought i know..
i don't know!!!! hahaha.. but as long as he is happy, then i'm happy for him.

well.. gotta study and stuff la..
i wonder if he will call me back like he promised..

i am considering whether i should sign up as a mentor.. swiss is 1 of the schools involved in SMP as well.. wana do sth for my sch as well.. and.. it seems like a really good experience..

just taken my Japanese mid-term test that day.. hmm seems pretty ok?? i didn't think it was very difficult la, but some of them said it was quite difficult.. er.. what if i fail?!!
but seriously, Japanese is kinda getting tougher and tougher.. haiz.. gonna put in more effort!!! wana continue with Japanese 2..

have alot of papers due the coming week.. it's like, for the 1st time, having a term break actually disrupts my studying!! 'cause i slack too much during the term break liao, in the end no motivation to study after the term break.. what the.. stupid la.. have to get back the momentum to study...

have to start exercising as well!!!!!!!! i have grown fat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
damn... hahahahhaah...

i realised something when i was travelling on my way to school (again) that day..
that.. she might be keeping something from me!!! that.. maybe she actually likes him!!!! hmm.. veru suspicious, you know..

eh.. nothing much la.. gotta study!!!!!!!

tml is 8th March!!!!!!!!
hahaha... only so i know what that means..

anyway, i saw my calculus guy in school today!!!
so qiao!!!! was on my way to my Jap lesson when i saw him..
he's so cuuutttteee!!!!!
like, nerd nerd lidat..
hahaha.. cuz he's like fa dai den i gotta catch his attention b4 he saw me..
den i said hi and walked off.. den i heard him say 'bye' after i walked off..
so weird!!!
actually wanted to talk awhile, but seems weird.. so i walked off.. was kinda going to be late anyway..

i haven't started studying for my Japanese test!!!!
i don't know what to study!!!
i know i gotta revise, but i don't know where to start.. -_-""


something came to me when i was on my way home just now..
remembered this scene from the anime 'Twelve Kingdoms'
in 1 of the stories, there is this female master who is very fierce and always blows her top, torturing her servants..

there will be times whereby she blows her top and shouts to her servants, asking them whether they hate her, and the servants will tell her that they love her (though they really hate her to the bones) they are so scared that she will punish them if they told the truth)

then she will get even angrier and shout to them, asking them why don't they tell her the truth. if they hate her, then just tell her that they hate her, but the servants still continue to tell her that they love her..

but actually, she just wants them to be honest with her..
but how many could actually be honest????


reminds me.. why can't people just be frank and tell other people how you really feel? if i ask, it means that i'm prepared to hear you say thay you don't like me..
i just want to know the truth..

which brings me back to.. why do you want to lie???
is it because you want to please everyone??
don't you realise that by lying, you are actually giving the person excuse to carry on with the ways that you don't like him/her to do???
because when he/she asked you about it, you kept quiet..

so..
don't talk behind the back
don't dislike the person
don't shun the person

because when given the opportunity, you kept quiet..


hmmm does it sound abit heavy??
hahaha thats what i tot on the bus.. so you can see how boliao i am.. hahaha..
u got what i was trying to say??
hmm i abit blur with what i'm trying to say too.. hahaha..

anybody wants to watch underworld: evolution????
hmm tinking of catching the sequel..
anthony said not bad.. eh.. he did right?? hahahha...

but upon second thoughts, not sure whether i will have time to watch it..
feels like i've got tons of things to do, but been keeping them @ the back of my head..
gotta pull up my socks and finish up my work!!
-sighhh-

2 mid term tests and 2 essays coming..
i'm damn scared about the calculus mid term exam can.. i know nuts about the module..
i hope i can do well in my Japanese 1 test..
and 2 essays due!!!
and data collection!!!
and CF stuff that i have been dragging!!!
what on earth have i been doing, man...

procrastinating!!!
sometimes just feel like i'm not cut out for studying..
seriously thinking about what i can do after i graduate..
NIE?????
working?????
seriously considering NIE nowadays..
but.. i will abuse my students!!!! and i don't want to age prematurely... =x

cerise!!! are we still gonna open our own shops?!!!

sigh... my future looks bleak...

met up with xiang today!! =)
supposed to help her do some survey stuff, but we kana chased out by security guards.. out of citylink!!!! so dumb right??!! they say it's private property..
so in the end, we didn't do it at all!!
errr... xiang said nvm.. sorry girl.. for wasting your day..

so the very nice hanxiang accompanied me to bugis to buy my pens..
finally!!! i got my Muji pen!!!
finally i can write notes without worries of running out of ink!! -yeah!!!!-

so we went to Pasta Mania @ bugis and ate lunch.. while talking crap..
shared some stuff with her.. filled her in with my life for the past.. er.. 7 years??
hahaha.. those times when she was MIA la..
chit-chatting and then.. we msg-ed anthony!!
hahaha asked if he's free, wana come mit us.. he said ok.. but duno wat time la..
so in the end me n xiang carry on nua-ing till we decided we wana leave, and xiang called him..
then.. blah blah blah.. he came!
er.. went to eat hua sheng yuan (which is tang yuan with peanuts as the fillings)
and.. they were arguing the whole time!!! omg...!!!!
then i was like.. er.... cool down cool down..
hahahaha.. the 2 of them ah, cannot be put together!!! they will end up fighting!!!

and anyway, walked ard somemore after that and we saw kailing!!! from pri sch.. apparently anthony still keeps in contact with her!! =) din realise she's studying @ SIM.. er.. loo has seen her b4, i think..

so well, me n xiang went to take 960 back to BP...
so you think tts the end of the day right?? no!!!!
we waited super long for the bus can!! stupid 960.. make the both of us tired, super tired, and super duper tired!!
in the end, we took a super long alternative route home.. dun ask me how we got home.. it's too tiring to repeat it..

so.. that ends our day!!! =)
nice....


was walking home after alighting from the bus just now..
then suddenly i raised my head..
and....
.
.
.
.
.
.
i saw so many stars in the sky!!!!
its so pretty!!!!
completely made my day.. =)

so if you're free, look out of your window..
might just be in for a big surprise..

pretty pretty...

was super hungry this afternoon..
wanted to ask ppl out to go bugis.. ermm.. in the end never lo..
nobody's free.. -sadz-

oh! u realised! i'm supposed to have a lecture now!
i skipped!! -dun scold me-
'cause my eyecandy in class is not going!!
you see, if my eyecandy is not going, then i will sleep if i go to the lecture..
hmmm.. and i s/u-ed that module somemore.. so might as well skip right??
-heee-

'huh? oh! u wana know why is my eyecandy not going??'
hahahah he's so cute~~!! he's not giong 'cause he can't see.. -oops-
he didn't bring his specs today so he can't see a thing..

'oh. so how'd he go to other classes today??'
ya! thats what i wondered too..
how did he manage to sit through all the other lectures, den decide to skip the calculus lecture??
because, according to him, he said that he wun be able to understand the calculus lecture.. 'cause the lecturer will write stuff on the transparency and he can't see whatz...
hahahah ain't he cute??

'huh? you wana know how come he never wear his specs today?'
haha he said he sent them to the optician to change the lens..

and when i saw him in the LT today, i was wondering how come he never wear specs.. he's not those type to wear contacts, you see.. he's those type to go under xiang's 0.5 beta of eyecandies.. the stock has half the risk of an average stock..

nononono.. he's not a jerk!! he's the other hypothesis..

hahahahahahhahahhaha

but still, he's cute.. hee.. =)
so sad.. i will only get to see him on wed le..
i hope he goes for the calculus lecture on wed.. -grins-