i was talking to cerise online and she asked what happened to me.. i've 'disappeared' from the online community for a long time..
well, i've not been online.. hahaha.. i cant go MSN from my office, and i'm lazy to blog cuz i haven't uploaded the pictures and i'm so gonna be scolded by xianglooyun.. so i don't dare to come online.. hahaha..
anyway, my seminar is finally over!! it went very well, and the research group was even invited to give a talk next saturday.. =) the feedback was good and everything, so i'm happy..
this week marks the 1 year that i have been working.. and we celebrated our '1st year anniversary' today! it's really good and we're all happy! held a farewell celebration for the interns today as well..
i really wanted to upload the pictures, but somehow cannot upload.. i have no idea why too.. anyway, i shall make an effort to do it some other time la..
working for a year already.. all i can say is, you never know how people feel until some time later.. some people may seem like they're on very good terms with you, but actually you never know what they are doing/feeling/talking behind you..
and some people, may seem like the quiet quiet type, but actually they are doing alot of small small things behind your back.. but still, i like my research team and most importantly, there is dian!!!! and jokat, darren, RG and many many more.. =)
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that day, my sports shoes kinda spoilt.. which reminded me that this pair of sport shoes has been with me for the past 4 years.. when i first got this pair of shoes, i thought it was abit tight for me..
but i bore with it.. and now, i've worn it for 4 years already and i really it.. it doesn't bother me that it's a little tight, i've gotten used to it..
and now, i suddenly realise that while i don't want to, it's time to let it go..
you know how people tend to let go and throw away things which they feel don't fit? it dawned on me that, nothing in this world fits perfectly.. there will be some degree of misfit.. it's how you look at it..
it's just like how 2 person will never match each other perfectly.. but after years of being together, they learn how to handle each other, how to appreciate each other, and how to live with each other..
like me and my shoes.. it used to be a little tight for me.. and after we've 'lived' with each other for such a long time, we got used to each other.. my shoes still give me blisters sometimes, but i'm used to it.. and i carry on wearing it.. i don't just throw it away.. i may not wear it so often in the beginning, but eventually everything's ok with me. even the occasional blisters.
it's like a relationship..
but like my shoes.. after a period of time, after it's been damaged so many times, the length of wearability decreases.. i may actively repair it all the time, but it may not last anymore..
and like my shoes.. i may not want to give it up, but persistance on my side is not going to sustain it anymore.. and while i may hate to say this, but it's time to move on..
oh well.. that's life..
