i know that 'i don't mean it' is a lousy excuse, but i didn't mean for it to hurt you
i know that..
i, of all people, should know and understand all the pain you went through.
should understand everything you went through
should understand how painful it is..
but i was too harsh..
i just.. didn't know how to let you understand that you have to let go..
stop hurting yourself, my dear.. not worth it..
in the end, the only person going to be hurt is you.. and you know that..
i know it's difficult, but i believe you can do it..
you will do just fine. you will be ok.
you will heal.. the scar may stay but you will heal..
i still promise to always be there for you
if you let me..
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isn't it stupid?
i still think, still hope..
still waiting..
but sometimes i think i might need someone to scold me, to be harsh with me
to tell me to stop too..
to tell me i'm stupid
to tell me its not worth it
to tell me to move on
to tell me i will be ok......
it needs to take me so many realisations to understand that..
isn't there a shortcut somewhere?
i thought i can..
turned out i couldn't.....
couldn't........
hurts...
