the urge used to come only when i'm in a down mood.. think its still the same.. just that it doesn't have the effect it used to have.. it doesn't take my mind away from so many things now..
changing blogskin used to take up alot of my concentration.. not so much nowadays.. since i'm lazy to change alot of things....
was really tempted to talk to you.. tempted to call you, tempted to find out how're you doing.. but i'm afraid of your reaction.. and i didn't want to give in anymore.. it's just.. tiring.. to always give in and accept whatever punishment you mete out. things are not supposed to work that way you know.. things really work both ways..
anyway, all the desire to pick up tt fone vanished when you come online and i see your nick. once again, it did the job of telling me:
'back off. hate you.'
did alot of things yesterday and today though.. finally completed my long due volunteers list that i'm supposed to hand back to NVPC. takes some determination to finish it though. and it wasn't as hard as i thought it would be..
guess it boils down to..
alot of things just need you to start.. and once you start, things will be alot easier than you thought it would be.. that includes opening your mouth..
once you gather the courage and start on it, things will be alot easier..
but well, where is the courage to come from?!!
anyway, went swimming (or rather, water-dipping) with irene and loo today.. haven't met up with loo since she came back from aussie.. ya been busy with stuff and havent had the time to meet her.. and irene.. been saying want to go her hse b4 hols.. now sch reopen liao then go.. -sighs-
took a picture with loo.. irene went to check her phone and decided to shun bian help us take picture.. nice? =)
i wish to have a wonderful birthday.. pls.....
