felt like deleting the previous entry.. but oh well... forget it..
was super duper down just now..
having tuition and i felt like crying.. =x like a crybaby...
felt so bad towards my student.. wasn't in the mood to teach @ all..

so... i went to cut my hair!! er.. trim, actually.. layered it so it doesn't look so thick anymore.. now it looks nice! hopefully it stays nice after i wake up tml..

told stupid RZ about me gg out with HY tml.. AND HE SAID HY'S INTERESTED IN ME!! -fumes- tts impossible.. thanks for consoling me though.. hahahaha

told him about everything.. well not exactly everything.. i was halfway through it and suddenly we talked about sth else... haaa as usual la...
and... i'm feeling alot better now!! thanks to him... we always hold on to each other during difficult times.. and i think tts wat makes me really treasure him.. 'cause he's always there for me when i need him.. and he'll always rem me when he's sad (aka when his status changed...)

-whew- felt like a bitch just now.. at least i feel nomal now.. i thought i was gonna turn into a bitch permanently..
you know there are times when you know the things you are doing are wrong?? but u just feel like doing it?? like, morally you know its wrong and you should not do it?? but you went ahead with it anyway.. just feel like ignoring the voice in your head and go ahead and be a bitch!!
anyway, i'm back to normal!!! the voice in the head triumps!!

have no idea when i felt that way..
maybe its the way i was being treated made me feel like i made a wrong decision??? like how i shld've realised things are no longer the same but somehow they just feel the same?!!
situations changed = treatment changed right??? but thats not the case!! and i felt like things are still the same.. and i snapped out of reality and realised i'm really just nobody's child.. (ya i'm my parents' child...)

anyway, really wanna thank RZ for everything he did for me..
thanks loads...
and i shld've asked him along to ben's bday party la!! told him abt him and he said i shld've asked him too!! but come to think of it.. he wouldn't be in the mood to do so anyway.. -oops- so we have agreed!! he will acc me to bday parties if i have no dates!! haaaaa.. i'm blogging it down so that i will remember!!!

really glad that things worked out for me n him.. glad that we're still such good frens and he can confide in me..
i totally agree with this sentence..
unless 2 ex-lovers can come clean with each other about their current lovelifes, their relationship can never be purely friendship..
how true.. if we never came clean with each other, until today we (or @ least I) will still have some feelings for each other.. at least i believe so...
and we even acknowledged the fact that we were a couple b4 today!!! we talked about the date we were tgt and about how he's nicer to his other ex(s) than he is to me!!!! -fumes- we were still young la huh.... ignorant...

but tts not true for the other case...
i guess all in all, i'm just angry that he's over it so soon..
but well.. i should've expected it, right????

yes i'm speaking in riddles again...